Wednesday, October 20


a tranquil fall morning, and fog on the lake
does not this ethereal calm beauty make.
and neither the sunrise, the colors, the clear,
nor the stubborn dawn stars twinkling still, and so near.
This beauty, comprised just of the sum of its parts
would not tear at our fancies and tap on our hearts -

no, something is behind it all and tying it together
something makes reflections be, but rarely meet, if ever.
and something is just forcing us to halt our gait and stare;
that something is informing all our souls of just what's there.

for the calmness of first light, the grasses deep green
we yearn to just stay there, our duties forsake;
for i always return, lest i miss the great scene,
to a tranquil fall morning with fog on the lake.

Sunday, October 17

God is beautiful, and i always forget.
He has his timing, and He is constantly doing something. How little i deserve His love. How unfair of Him to let me even be the least deserving of these. He should forget me.
He doesn't forget me!
Lord, how I wish you didn't have to always draw me back to you. How i long to walk ever closely with You. You bless me with your goodness and with things that i love - what a personal God you are, knowing my individuality (having created it purposefully). Why do you care about what i am, what i stand for, what calms me and excites me?
My beautiful God; i always forget.

please continue to provide for the children of India through child sponsorship however and whenever you see fit.
please continue to mold me into your image, whatever that looks like.
please continue to take away from me that which i do not need, that which You do not love.
please continue to rend my heart.

Let me love those you love... let me "identify myself with Your interests in other people, not identify YOU with MY interests in other people."

oof, God, you're good and i'm just not. Thanks for love - thank you that it's there for me, whether i believe in it or not.

Wednesday, October 13

that's my everything.

well, i'm not gonna lie.
i'm sitting in class right now.
but i'd rather be writing than concentrating on William James and psychology laboratories founded in 1879.

i was thinking the other day about how some things in life are everything, and i haven't been able to keep the concept off my mind.
see, as style goes, confidence is everything.
in photography, light is everything.
as far as contentment, nothing is everything.
you can be stylish without confidence, but confidence is really what creates style. you can pull off almost anything if you're comfortable rocking it.
Photographs are made up of more than light, but without the correct lighting, no picture will stand out. light is beauty to photography.
nothing as everything is a rather tricky concept - but the way i think about it, i'll never be content unless i feel i need nothing else, and hold nothing in my current possession too tightly. the entire concept revolves around my view of nothing.

What i am now learning, as a subsequent concept, is that to life,
Jesus is everything.
it's been said before --
but here's what it means to me in light of all of this.
you can have life without Jesus, but He's really what makes it life.
Life is made up of more elements than just Christ,
but without Him, no life will have meaning.
He is beauty to life.
I'll never have life until i know what it means to me that i have Jesus.
my entire life revolves around my view of Christ.

i know it sounds elementary, but...
wow. He is really everything.