ripples

why is it, that

when one thing leaves me, everything's gone?

there's never a give and a take... 

it makes me feel hopeless- can you even go on

when you've made every single mistake?

it's just like a ripple is placed in effect

like everything's waiting to break.

when the hammer is dropped, there's no way to deflect

all these feelings with all that's at stake.

left alone, left to ponder, left to just sit and think

to keep wondering what i did wrong.

holding onto my knees with fat tears on the brink

of my eyelids. you've broken my song.

and now, though i'm broken, im fumbling to find

where the deed was done, how i got here.

maybe i'm callous, maybe im blind. 

all i know is: i live my worst fear.